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31.3.05
heyya ppl..
been missing lately cz of ...nuthing else but WORK
anywae..i'm staying up..
surfing for Laptops..
will start Rp-ing on 18April..
aaargghh...lyke wtf..sooo soonn..
f*** it larh.
Randall is in d' same course as me..yeah..at least i noe some* ppl..
else..i'll be going arnd asking ppl to be my fren..
gawd,,,i can't imagine being a poly student..
seriously..i'm having d nervousness of it all..
[[Biotechnology..here i come..]]

what makes a Me.
-immaturity
-dwarf among d' dwarfs..
-a child at heart??
having these are lyke sooooo..u noe...soooo
arghhh..i just can't fit in a Poly.
DAMNM LAR..
i need to attend a self-esteem programme..
any sponsors???

omg.omg.omg.
how am i gonna go to sch on d' 18th???
with dat frame of mind...??/
with all dat immaturity???/
with all dat palyful antics of mine??/
how? how? how?

i can't wait to start learning again but ..
i dun wanna go to sch worrying of how to please others n' fit in..
oh ..
rite..i'm a 17 yr old girl worrying of not able to fit in..
lyke hello???
shahidah..sumthing's not right..

oh ya..my class is conducted online...weee~...gonna use d' notebook for like 24/7
no more inks/liquids/recycled paper...

adrena's coming on d' 2nd..
unfortunately/sadly/...i can't receive her cz i'll be working..
oh god..don't start cursing me cz i'm doing it now..
i reallli miss her..n' charles..

p.s: thanks to charles fer sending d' postcard..luv ya too...come back soon yea..


to those retards:..eh..hang out at d' esplanade b4 my sch starts.

i've seriously no more time.
god..sound like i'm on my deathbed.
which reminds me of d' 1000 fered dead in d' recent Indo quake.
i'm feeling that d' end of world is approaching..
saw a cat (on TV) born only with one eye../4 ears..no mouth or nose..
astarghfirrullahalazim..
(sorry if d' spelling is wrong)pardon me.

i'm listening to 2 songs by Peterpan..realllliii niceee
Izat burned it ..thnks dude..
Izat..d' same guy who absent-mindedly threw an unripe tomato at me..
screw u larh..but he's real nice..
serious.


my life is soo fucking screwed..
time's moving at a fucking fast rate
n i am fucking caught up with it..
i'm swearing my heart out..
i noe it's a sin..
so i'm swearing on my so called online diary..
lesser sins i guess??

hmm..so far aftr bout 3mths of pure sweats..
i've bought myself 3bottoms/2bags/2shoes/2tops
" sis a watch
" father a new hp
well mum>>gave her everything of what's left...
i'm not bragging but i feel good..
coz for once..i used my hard earned $$$ to buy something ..
but when sch starts n i'm still working whenever i'm free..
i'm not gonna shop..
will be using my salary as my 'duit makan' cum belanja.
independent.

i'm gonna head for a fresh life.
Fadhil is my past and i am certainly not planing to bring him into my future.
not because i don't want to
but because i've learnt to let go.
it's such a hell of an uphill task but i'm gonna go through it.
And i noe i will.
Do i love him so much that i keep on rambling about him?
mayb i do..
mayb because of the affection we used to shared...
but now..it's all lost..
why bother searching for it..
it's like looking for a needle in a haystack
now, thats LOVE.
watever.
deep inside me...i wish Fadhil was no more than a good fren..
if only that took place.
a friendship in xchange of a relationship.

_Aisyah_

at some point..i know i've hurt her by growing apart
but i know that she will always be the best a friend could ever want.
sadly thou i'm that fren..
who have missed her sooo much..
i treasure our moments 2gether
i treasure our friendship
i treasure HER.


_Ali_

the emotional lass..
are u cold?
may b u're
but hey..with all respect..adibah is adibah
u're just frank..dats all.
luv you for who you are..
so never ask me whether u are cold or not..

_Fadhil_

confession:
at this point i realize dat mayb
i cld nvr love anyone like i did for him.
mayb i could..dat is if i want to.
but now NO.
thanks for giving me d' chance to adore you
thou i wasted d' shit of it.

i'm gonna cry soon..
because i'm gonna miss every SINGLE soul of those peeps of mine



_-_-I'M ScReWEd.


black

no, i didn't wrangle the cat!
Gibberish
22 soon.

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